So today is Ash Wednesday. The start of the Lent season. I'm no Catholic, despite going to Catholic school for many years, but I do love the idea of having a set time to look at your life and your habits and spending quiet time evaluating what's serving you and the greater good of the universe and what's not. I want to challenge myself, ugh this is going to be hard - it's hard to just type it, to not complain for the next 40 days. I know that makes me sound like a whiny little girl, but I mean I want to stop the negative talk and thoughts. I want to challenge myself to see every struggle or fear as an opportunity for growth. I want to force myself, as hard as it may be, to replace the worst case scenario with the best case scenario....and I've been trying to do this in general with my fears and anxiety, but scratch all the description - I just want to give up complaining. Because I do believe that I can choose to learn from everything and that a lot of times complaints are just another way for our psyche to protect us from the pain of rejection or fear of failure and so on. So yeah, I want to stop complaining.
I also toyed (toyed? since when did I start using that word??) with the idea of giving up gluten or sugar..but I've been really mindful of my gluten intake anyway and sugar...well...that can maybe wait till next year. Ohhh and giving up social media would be amazing but I am too weak. But someone else should totally do it.